[00:17.74] I just wanna feel alive [00:19.65] Maybe I should start smoking? [00:20.91] Maybe I should tell her how I feel [00:22.35] Maybe I should go and get my heart broken [00:24.99] Maybe I should take a long walk [00:26.93] Maybe I should put my got damn phone down [00:28.77] Maybe I should do a lil more [00:31.16] Maybe I should stop by my grandmas house [00:33.80] I was thinkin 'bout a sunny day [00:35.32] I was wondering how to make my dad proud of the son he raised [00:37.76] I was wondering how these kids get hooked on these one-a-days [00:41.97] Funny thing, I be lookin' at em in a judgey way [00:44.26] Truth is, I ain't never felt like I should run a way [00:46.36] I ain't never had to live a life that I fuckin' hate [00:48.40] I know people livin' with a never ending stomach ache [00:50.28] But I been wondering if I'm really happy [00:53.14] I ain't sad, I'm just wondering if I'm really happy [00:55.21] I been wondering if this shit that I been chasin' [00:57.58] Gon' be gratifying for me when it really happens [00:59.45] I should be feelin' blessed to just be breathin' [01:00.92] Lately I can't seem to fight the stress and all the demons [01:02.71] Lately I just seem to treat the sex like an achievement [01:05.15] Goin' deeper with no depth and all I left 'em with is some semen [01:07.41] I hope that shit was worth it [01:11.37] Look at the mistakes that made me grow into this person [01:13.21] I been seeing all the flaws 'fore I notice when it's perfect [01:15.06] I just wanna feel alive [01:17.18] Maybe I should start smoking? [01:19.50] Maybe I should tell her how I feel [01:21.78] Maybe I should go and get my heart broken [01:24.11] Maybe I should take a long walk [01:26.23] Maybe I should put my got damn phone down [01:28.32] Maybe I should do a lil more [01:30.12] Maybe I should stop by my grandmas house [01:32.29] I was thinkin 'bout a sunny day [01:34.30] I was wondering how to make my dad proud of the son he raised [01:36.46] I was wondering how these kids get hooked on these one-a-days [01:41.25] Funny thing, I be lookin' at em in a judgey way [01:43.06] Truth is, I ain't never felt like I should run a way [01:45.66] I ain't never had to live a life that I fuckin' hate [01:47.78] I know people livin' with a never ending stomach ache [01:50.52] All that you been bringin' me is self doubt [01:51.83] I feel like they leechin' all my health now [01:53.43] Ain't nobody thinkin' for themselves now [01:54.68] All they worried 'bout is if they need you [01:56.03] Can you help now? [01:57.00] No [01:57.83] All this shit gon' bring me to a meltdown [01:58.84] Woah [01:59.69] I done spent some weeks in the dark [02:02.08] Only listening to beats in a seat tryna start [02:04.15] On these words and accelerate the beat from my heart [02:05.99] Searchin for that high again [02:07.24] And I want that shit to last me more than [02:09.37] 5 or 10 minutes at a time, take control of my environment [02:10.97] Choosin' how my time is spent, gotta let you know that [02:13.25] Anybody with me in the middle of the [02:14.73] Night is liable to become my psychiatrist [02:16.35] Ain't it funny how that goes [02:19.54] Everything been good, I just wanted you to know [02:20.80] I been growin' up [02:22.87] I just wanna feel alive [02:25.27] Maybe I should start smoking? [02:27.01] Maybe I should tell her how I feel [02:29.18] Maybe I should go and get my heart broken [02:31.35] Maybe I should take a long walk [02:33.41] Maybe I should put my got damn phone down [02:35.44] Maybe I should do a lil more [02:37.52] Maybe I should stop by my grandmas house [02:39.87] I was thinkin 'bout a sunny day [02:41.99] I was wondering how to make my dad proud of the son he raised [02:44.90] I was wondering how these kids get hooked on these one-a-days [02:48.59] Funny thing, I be lookin' at em in a judgey way [02:50.33] Truth is, I ain't never felt like I should run a way [02:52.63] I ain't never had to live a life that I fuckin' hate [02:54.78] I know people livin' with a never ending stomach ache [03:40.26]